Welcome to Fae Yells!
I'm redesigining because I miss coding and half of the images on my old site have atrophied so are just showing up as the stupid image sybol (aka "") so im really pissed about that but please enjoy my new site!
I also stopped coding so much because my school banned neocities on the school wifi and my hotspot is shit so i have less time to actually code ughhhhhh. I SWAR they did it just to annoy me, I know for a FACT that my site does not include malware, because I coded it, thank you very much.
Hobbies
this is mainly for myself as i frequently forget what my hobbies are. I've recently re-deleted tiktok and am trying my hardest to do more of them instead of being on my phone. All of the time i spent on my phone to "relax" on my off time made me even more tired than doing activities that took actual effort (these arent ranked btw just in random order). so here we go:
1. i love to code. I love puzzels and coding is just like that, I have to find solutions to problems that arent to stressful and they almost always have an answer I can reach in a day or two at most.
2. worldbuildng. this encompasses many other hobbies i have so i wont go into much depth. I create fantasy worlds that are projects in themselves but also have my creative writing projects set in them (i also do worldbuilding for fanfiction). this includes greating geography, weather patterns, cultures, languages, religions, places, clothing styles and fashion, politics, myths and histories.
3. language construction. I have many constructed languages, some for original projects some for fan-creations. i get further every time i make one, im currently researching and working on getting better at grammar systems.
4. creative writing, pretty self explanatory. i like to write. mainly stories from my own worlds and stuff, character studies, worldbuilding studies, sometimes i write in my conlangs, sometimes i construct coded letters. its really fun you guys should try it, making your own codes and stuff. i used to write fanfiction but ive got such a bad habit of planning out a project completely, writing two chapters then being unable to write anything more (its the ADHD i bet) and so i feel like its unfair to anyone who may want to read those fic for me to abandon them like that.
5. drawing... i like to draw.
6. ive been making music recently. i might link it on here eventually.
special interests
Hannibal
hannibal. i love hannibal. im so obsessed with it it's really unhealthy. its so bad. my obssession, not the show. the show is sososososo good. i make lit everything about hannibal. i find a way to make most of my school projects
about hannibal to get through actually doing them. i love mads mikkelson so much (as picture to your right proves), i love gillian anderson so much (as picture above proves), im so in lesbians with her. that scene where shes being interviewed about hannibal and is all "has hannibal ever persuaded you to kill someone? he will, and it will be someone you love, and you will think it is your only choice" and the scene where she pulls her whole fucking arm out of that guys throat. they make me so carnally feral.
ive watched the show like eight times and everytime i see hannibal and will on screen together i feel like ripping my skin of and standing in the moon light like a fucking werewolf with my bare flesh in the wind. i very almost actually got to writing a fanfic about them but then the ADHD got me and i scrapped it in favour of project ribbons (revamp) so like ughhhhhhhhhhhh... i have read a lot of fanfiction though. and drawn so much fanart. some of it is doing pretty well on tumblr. which is suprising. it wasnt that good. anyway i love hannibal so much. i made a 10 minute video essay abt it for media and got a 92% :P. i made a screenprint of a broken teacup for art, i made whole bunch of other stuff ive forgotten now. i love hannibal so much it drove me to read books written by an old white man in the 80s. and it was suprisingly good. red dragon and silence of the lambs are my comfort audiobooks that i listen to while im making food or im too tired to watch things but bored. except the narator for red dragon is rlly buns.
Ethel Cain
okay so im writing this on the 19/04/2026, ethel has just brought back her tumblr under the @ TANKHALL. this was my reaction two hours ago: "TANKHALL. SHE JUST MADE HER TUMBLR 11 HOURS AGO RARRARARARARA. im actually shaking. i know this is a weird introduction but her tankhall blog page reminded me i have a website! im soosososo obsessed. ill go more in depth later." here i am, going into more depth.
i started listening to ethel cain a few months ago, just after school started, so maybe mid-late february. i first 
listened to preachers daughter on my projector while i was doing my makeup for school in the morning so i didnt really comprehend the lyrics. i became fixated with thoroughfare and listened to it about forty times in two or three days. this happened with house in nebraska and family tree in their own time. after a week or so of this i then re-listened to the whole album another time. i then became obsessed with gibson girl and family tree (intro), then sunbleached flies. each of these was 3 days to a solid week of me listening to the same song day and night, reading and rereading the lyrics, thinking about the sound of it, implying the lore and so on.
ive recently had more apreciation of the instrumentals which i originally overlooked because im more of a lyrics person myself. i cannot listen to hard times or ptolemaea too often but i love them so deeply and how well they portray the emotions and experiences they were made to. i havent found myself reaching for western nights but i know one day i will. later i may do a deep song by song analysis but i dont have the energy right now and ill have to do serious notetaking.
after that i listened to Willoughby tucker, i will always love you and with the prior experience of wasting one whole listen without headphones or lyrics i sat my arse down and put my headphones on and listened. it wasnt my favourite at the time and still isnt but im giving it space to breathe in my life. ive been reaching for dust bowl, and more recently nettles and knock at the door which is nice but i dont love them as intensely as i loved preachers daughter. ive only istened to the whole album together five times though so ill give it time.
a few days-a week ago i listened to Perverts and loveedddd it, vacillator was my instant favourite but i havent re-listened to the whole album again as much as id like to, as it was quite heavy on me. i love punish obviously it has some of the most powerful writing both sonically and lyrically ive ever heard. i will re listen to the album with lyrics when i feel as though i can, i get very paranoid due to my anxiety disorder and if i listen to her more ominous tracks i have panic attacks and paranoia episodes.
maybe two days ago i listened to Inbred. i love love love this one, the title track is my favourite so far. ive been listening to it maybe ten-twenty times a day. i also love love love crush and the others but LET ME TELL YOU about how much i hate it when im listening to agorgeous beautiful ethereal ethel track and then in comes the most awful, american man, poisoning the track with his fake emo accent. this is not an emo track, you are on the wrong instrumental, i would listen to that on its own, but not on an ethel cain track. i have all the solo versions as the basic ones and the ones with the other poeple in my "ethel cain altered versions" album. oh btw i pirate all my music and store it on apple music so i can compile, name and store it as i like. its also free. thank you 
OFA downloader, please dont go down again like you did last night. its up again! which im really happy about, trying to use YTMP3 made me loose my mind.
im trying to get more into all of the lore but theres just so much of it. im deeply exited for all of the future content, i read the page of the possible future book 'diary of a preachers daughter' and really REALLY hope she ends up finishing and publishing it sometime soon because its rlly rllllyyyyy good and right up my alley for reading. I'm also incredibly exited for mama cain and grandma cain's stories. i dont know if TANKHALL is gonna be that or whether its the sequel to perverts. either way ill be skipping. i keep reloading her blog to see if shes reblogged or posted anything but theres only been one gif of some fanart since last night when i firt saw it. i've gotta start watching her videos and lives more, i love how she speaks and thinks.
i love her southern gothic vibe and i wish i could encorporate more of an australian gothic vibe into my life in general. i try to take photos with this vibe but idk if they turn out well:
it was definately fun though. i should take more photos. her whole vibe is so imaculate. i strive to emulate her in the same way i do with Aubrey Beardsley. everything about her is just so coooollllll. shes so pretty too.
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